Ain’t No Sunshine

August 19, 2010 at 11:55 am | Posted in Uncategorized | 3 Comments
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My mother called this morning.

My grandmother has breast cancer.

She turns 90 this November.

They are going to operate. No chemo.

I’ve always loved pink. Everything I own is pink. Now pink makes me burst in to tears.

I wish it was me instead of her. I hear that’s normal.

I want to punch someone. I hear that’s normal.

I want to run as far and as fast as I can. I hear that’s normal.

I want to throw up. I hear that’s normal.

I want to cry all the time. I hear that’s normal.

I want to scream. I hear that’s normal.

There’s a new normal now.

I’m trying to get ready for a fight.

I have never in my life felt this before. I hope that none of you ever have to go through this. And for those of you that have…I’m so sorry. I thought I understood before. You really don’t understand until you’re there.

Dear God, please. Please….

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